Ever feel like all you do every day is manage chaos? You go from one “crisis” to the next, picking up lost pieces and trying to put them back together again. But somehow Humpty just isn’t the same. Only you, mom, are the “Humpty” in this scenario!
That would be me. I am sure you have moments and days like this, too. When I was a working mom and was the charge nurse I often felt the same way–that I was managing chaos. Sure, there was a floor full of sick and mentally unstable kiddos–but there were also the staffing needs and the group needs, and the task delegation. For some reason, it was a whole lot easier managing that kind of chaos (and let me tell you–it was chaotic) compared with running a medium-sized household of two sprightly redheads. This is plain ol’ hard.
I am not so sure why two pint-sized people are so much more to manage than the child psych unit where I once worked. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that they are my flesh and blood and I love them differently than my nursing colleagues and patients. Perhaps it’s because they don’t listen like adults do. They don’t reason like adults do. I don’t know…But that’s not to say that us “grown-ups” are any easier, right?
It’s all hard. What we need is a system. Sorry, but I don’t have any answers today.
All I know is: I am tired. I skipped my workout because that is just one less thing I have to “manage.” I am wearing my “comfy-cozies” today and I ate a big bowl of broccoli cheddar soup from Panera for lunch. All I want to do next is take a nap. But there are some “chaotic management” items I need to tend to first: gathering the trash from 8 different wastebaskets, unloading the dishwasher, swiffering the floor, putting away laundry, sending a few emails, and cleaning up this junk pile I call my desk. Of course, I will try to do all of this while the girls fuss–bicker–cry– repeat cycle.
Ah yes, a stay-at-home mom’s job is oh-so-glamorous. Maybe I’ll crack that novel I’ve been meaning to write in my spare time or heck, I’ll just start performing surgery in my living room. Afterall, I’m all about managing chaos.